Becoming Devon J Hall
The first name people came to know me as online was “SynDenial”. Over the years several hundred people asked me what that meant, why I had chosen that. I only chose it because I thought it sounded sexy. However, as it happens, I grew into the name. I spent a lot of years believing that the pain and suffering I was going through was in fact because God thought I was a sinner and deserved to suffer.
It was only in the early months of twenty-Seventeen that I began to realize that I was living a life based on the ideas of other people. I wasn’t living my life for me, but instead for others – I was so focused on pretending that I didn’t care how others thought about me, that I didn’t stop to think what “I” thought of me.
I’ve since changed my name, and am in the process of doing so legally. I decided that if I didn’t have family and friends that support and love me as I am, then they don’t deserve to be my family and friends anymore.
Becoming Devon J Hall is all about the rediscovery of self, while simultaneously trying to help inspire others to discover who they are.
I’m proud of how far I have come from a girl filled with guilt and shame to a woman filled with pride at the fact that she’s survived. There have been some rough days, and there will always be days that aren’t so great, but I intend to instead focus on the good things in life. I intend to learn to take better care of myself and hope that you, those of you who are still feeling as if you deserve the harm that has been done to you as if you deserve to remain a victim become inspired to find the light as I am doing.
Thank you, for taking this journey with me, for inspiring me to keep going even when I feel like giving up. I genuinely love each and every one of my readers, and I am forever grateful that you are taking the time to let me speak to you through my journey.